whats up

whats up? i ask it all the time. it's some search for something more interesting than what i'm doing. what can i say i'm human so are you. why can't we just be happy with what we are doing. i find myself looking on to the next thing instead of just being in the moment. i am sure that Jesus spent His life fully in the moment, i want to be like that. like right now i'm listening to music trying to write here and having the kids pull at me. all are good things but i cannot do all of them well together, i need to learn to find the best thing and do that and let the other stuff fall. i pray you and i find the best thing and focus on that.

disappointment

how about the fighting illini, so much promise and then what. oh well. what do you do with disappointment, little ones, huge ones and those in between. i get tired of them and i am amazed which ones set me off. not clock tower set off but set off none the less. i know there are mental health reasons for when you fill up with stuff and it must come out but i wonder what can be done to hold back the flow. probably some sort of exercise i am not doing or can figure out how to make my body do, figures, now more disappointment. not sound like an unrealistic otherworldly fool but i am happy i/we serve a God who cares enough to take our disappointments and do whatever He does with them. i tryed to think of the right word for that last sentence but i don't know what He does with them which proves i don't know how to process them and increases my awe in Him and settles again my devotion to Him.

this is it

hello,
i've been talking about it fot months and ow its here. pastor rod's blog. just a place to vent and ask and answer questions. let me know how i can help and what we can learn together. looking forward to hearing from you