musing

just sitting here thinking about stuff. not deep stuff just stuff. like how i seem to think i can get all bent out of shape when i feel betrayed, hurt or abused. i know you are supposed to feel that way pschologicly speaking but truthfully i gave away my rights when i took on the label of Christian. if am gonna be a little Jesus i have to act, live and feel like Him. i never read in the bible or any other commentary that He ever felt the things that i am plagued by. it does say that He knows are pains and sorrows, He lived here in flesh, He knows that those things come up and He had huge reason to be angry or hurt... it is never written that He even acknowleged those, He wept with a family that lost its brother, he got angry with the money changers. He never tore into anyone who failed Him. He even gave peter the chance proclaim his love for Jesus the same number of times that peter failed Him. man, i have a lot to learn. i think i'm in good company, we all have a lot to learn.